life in 40-dollar increments

i never saw life as strung cigarette to cigarette
& maybe that’s why those small escapes are legal
but deadly.  you smell money in a room
the way a shark tastes bait blood
in water, small eyes hunting the source
you would kill for as easily

craving that 40-dollar installment
that won’t fix anything but pause
for a while, in that taste you call controlling it
while the habit rides you in shudder & sweat

but the shark is innocent in his hunger.
what you want can never fill you
really.  it just makes you more empty

About Susan L Daniels

I am a firm believer that politics are personal, that faith is expressed through action, and that life is something that must be loved and lived authentically--or why bother with any of it?
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14 Responses to life in 40-dollar increments

  1. janehewey says:

    shark is very effective here… addiction is powerful. “shudder and sweat” –exactly!

  2. Seb says:

    Just the right balance of horror and sympathy

  3. you reeled me by a throbbing heart in my mouth!

  4. Green Speck says:

    “what you want can never fill you really. it just makes you more empty” This is so true !!!

  5. doncarroll says:

    you are 100 percent right on this. i remember as a kid with all those around me smoking. that shark was circling the waters for some time and then it took hold. first it was just smoking in the summer as a teen. but when i became an adult, it was full throttle. i’ve been able to cut back a bit this past week, but we had a wine fest and that didn’t help matters any….*LOL*. nice piece susan.

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