relational mechanics

finally, past pretending
I force my eyes
from the fixed point on the wall
I was memorizing
instead of listening

and look at you;
my eyes starting at the point
I suppose
your heart leaps
beneath skin and sternum
though I no longer
wish to rest my head there
lulled by that drum
while I sleep

drawing that line of sight up
to meet your eyes
dazzling in their fury
of brown backlit by fire

yes, there is someone else,
I say

the me I forgot
a long time ago
and further lost in you

that’s who I love

and why I am leavingΒ 

you shake your head
and ask me to speak clearly,
having missed
my targeted gaze

so much easier for you to understand
if I had just
made up a man

to leave you for

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About Susan L Daniels

I am a firm believer that politics are personal, that faith is expressed through action, and that life is something that must be loved and lived authentically--or why bother with any of it?
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20 Responses to relational mechanics

  1. Rhonda says:

    You rock….you are a rock….you are my hero….I’m always here! Very. Well. Done!

  2. nelle says:

    Whooo, and wow. Been there, too much there, never wish to be there, again. It reminds of the last day, my body moving, my spirit shattered. It would take months for the final fall, months more before life reclaimed me. Little markers etched my passage, things that cemented it all into memories I’d just as soon cast away, Sinead, singing Last Day of Our Acquaintance brought me to the next day, but I don’t know what saved me on that one and sent me forward to the next and the next and the next.

  3. Susan, what a voice! what power! such beauty! every line flows and rocks..raw, real

    the me I forgot
    a long time ago
    and further lost in you

    and for me, one mesage is clear from this song- you must never lose yourself as you loosen to another! . and then the comments by Rhonda and Nelle – really wow and touching and from deep down, revealing how so well your song has tuned into particles – emiotional and relational – floating around, the stuff relational mechanics is made of! Well done Susan! can I reblog?

  4. Reblogged this on visionvoiceandviews and commented:

    Great poem by my duet partner and fantastic poet that explores the pains of separation!

  5. honeyhaiku says:

    Whoa…this is fantastic!

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