He was with me
in the sunlight pressing blocks
into carpet, heat kissing the tips
of his black shoes shiny while I played
the shoelace game
with my small fingers
always unraveling
his knots–
and then
he wasn’t there,
but dead,
a new word for me
meaning that grandfather
eased out of his skin
and left it empty,
the way cicadas do
when they outgrow it,
escaping that too tight feeling
to spread wings.
Before then, I thought
you climbed those steps to heaven
wearing your skin
all the way to God;
not leaving a husk
like something breathed out of it,
not that naked.

